Fr0g's Life

I am back!!!!!

2004-09-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

Tata!!! I am finally back. Did not manage to blog in for a long long time. My com was down and things like tat. WOW... miss my blog so much... So much to be spoken of... My D & T is really killing me nowadays, hoping that i could faster clear it once and for all.

Few days back was teachers day, it was my last event... Gave my last push and my best too, though not really for MES stuff. Cos wanna let Gen. and Co. do the stuff themselves and i am quite happy with it. Able to sit down and RIP now, haha. All these years that i have committed so much into MES tat i am somehow lifeless i think. Or would it have been God's arrangement? Anyway, was glad, blessed and honoured to have poineered this grp of Media Specialist, starting frm scratch to the existance of 24 members now. Seeing each and every of them grow and mature just like a gardener whom sowed his seeds waiting for them to nurture and ripe some profit out frm there though yielding is not 100% in. Having some calling me daddy! haha, felt so homely and loved, lol... Hehe, Geraldine, Cheryl, Woam Shing and Berlinda so far are the only few so far out of the whole depart, but i am contented... Among all which all have different character and turned out to be amusing to me, especially my sec. 1 batch... LOLz Kenneth aka tortoise and cannon... Frequent standing together and singing the "Banana Song", if not then waving madly at each other. Woam Shing is another 1, she laugh and smiles practically everytime when i see her, brings happiness to me too. There are many many others too, shall mention them another time...

Did not really get used to sitting in with my class too, however still needa get used to it. Although miss them all, i really cannot express myself out, i sometimes feel very uncomfortable, even during lessons that i look into the past, into our happy times. Wish tat i can have their neoprints and passport photos so tat i can take it out and see them everytime i misses them the slightest... Love you guys really much... Take Great care and god bless you guys, hope tat you all could continue to yearn and things like tat, wishing and hoping the best for you guys... :)

Sunday~~>Fun Day

2004-08-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

LSBC had Fun Day today, though it is nothing spectacular but it is still fun! Meet Yh and Sm at 1130 before going off then went to the stall. Saw Samuel Ho-Loh, Lynn Ern, Li Ern, Alex and few others. The stall tat we are in-charge of it about shooting the table tennis ball balanced on the boat in the tub. Turned out that it was quite easy then we put time limit and increase distance between player and the tub. All left slowly then most of the time out left Lynn Ern and me to settle the stall, alot of kids come visit hence alot of work to do!!! at 1st suppose to leave at 3pm then became 4pm then cos the stall like got no1 there to help then just stayed there. When got no people that time then we all start playing water gun, haha alot of shooting ducks. Poor Amy and especially Lynn Ern... Lolz. All in all ate 4 ice creams and hang about before going home. Reached home at 7pm slept till 8pm, bath, eat then online...

Hmmm... Are things still the same... I mean everything for me... Now trying to be the best that i can be, would not talk about discipline stuff now, all is about friends and respect. My love for ya still the same but guess that i am still the same to ya, nth more than a dunno wat... However, still love ya. Missing ya lots, think too much liao. Should have leave things to the Lord earlier, should have know that he have greater plans for us... Everything is now with ya... God Bless.

National Day Celebration

2004-08-06T09:06:00.000+08:00

Today we had National Day Celebration, had the usual stuff then timothy came to me say mic. batt is weak, yet take long time to send ppl to get it. Ran to three different places and finally manage to get it. Whew, was sweating all over, while the other are having telematch, went up to the hall to ka jiao them. Everything was going on fine there, things started to smoothen liao. =) Alas!!! I am able to go in peace. Things are working out fine and hope tat Genevieve don't get herself stressed out through her career as a Manager or Consultant, take care. =c)

After the celebration, we ordered KFC to Berlinda's house which cost $77! -___- Hang around there for quite sometime before going off to Cineplex wanting to catch a show but to no avail. Ending up in K-box where they sang their way through, though only got 13 out of the 25 of us, but still enjoyed myself. There, came William Hung MTV and we all bang one another resulting in a chaotic situation. Haha, 1st i bang Kuang Shen and Varian then they all bang me back then Kuang Shen hatched with a evil plan.Hehe, he pushed Varain to Geraldine, lol it was fun. Sang a number of songs, stayed there till 7 then took a few neoprints with them also. Fun!!! Walked here and there then landed in PS before going home, but sadly was quite sick then... Hai~ But overall still enjoyed myself!!! Hope the next gathering, all of them can come.

MESB Outing 060804
Participants of the day~~~~> Mervin, Jane, Berlinda, Apple, Wai Mun, Geraldine, Woam Shing, Kuang Shen, Varian, Terence, Tuan Jin, Aaron & Me!!!!

Papa's Birthdae =c(

2004-08-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

Long time since i ever blog in. Today is my dad's birthdae but cannot celebrate it for him. I miss him so much yet words are useless now. In parts of life, people come and part frm ur life as soon as before u could make any amendments. I am feeling real low, who can i share it with? Everytime when i look into her eyes, i see the same set of eyes how my father would look at me, it brings back much more memories than i ever could ask. It stirs my emotions like tornado. It has already been 1yr plus since he left us all, however his every little gesture of love and things like tat are still fresh in my memory. I love you, dad. =~(

D & T is progressing hopefully by next thursday can complete everything. Still not being able to get her off my head, real hard... Loving her like never before knowing the fact that it is impossible, my heart still persist. ~I love you~

Thirsty-day

2004-07-29T19:18:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Past two weeks have not being doing my D & T artefact and got to do anything finish by next week liao... Cos been trying to wait for her and finding opportunities to see her often, hence... Stayed back everyday till about 6 plus, did nothing much, slacked, walked about, think frequently of her too.

Now that things are really in jeopardy, really do not want to do most of the time. My heart really aches alot when i send her the few sms. Though tat is wat i have said, but love for you still have not changed. It might be easy for 1 to say tat they understand how you feel, however how much do you really understand? Now stop wearing tie and chapter has ended. The write the next chapter and make it as attractable as possible, it is up to your plot and creatively to wipe out a nice book. MES out there, hope that you all can outshine and create history.

MeDia EquipMent SpeCiaList~~> MES(2004)

Genevieve Chua, Timothy Chan, Mervin Poh, Chan Wei Yen, Jane Koh, Apple Choy, Berlinda Cheong, Cheong Wai Mun, Choo Jian Rong, Ang Roon Kai, Long Jie Shan, Nathania Lee, Elaine Wong, Cheryl Neo, Varian Ang, Tuea Duan Jin, Chiu Kuan Sheng, Lim Woam Shing, Reban Rai, Kenneth Koh, Yeoh Zhi Chao, Aaron Teo, Terence Poh........

That is all that i have for now, hope things can turn out for the better, family members and friends around me... God Bless you all...

twozZz-day

2004-07-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

Had the usual stuff today, Electrical Riser Key still not found. Did alot of weather forecasting with the rest of the sec.1s... Haha... Went AVA watch some chinese VCD then went to the hall to see if they needa any help. Was shocked to hear the news that a Khai Yin's sister passed away, heard that it is something to do with the ambulance not being able to come on time and things like tat. Did not have the appetite to eat after that, then stayed in Control Rm for the upper sec. session, said my prayers for the deceased and her family. Went for D & T and had a mini-test then carried on with artefact, alot of work to be done. Went AVA 1 after that concerning NYAA (sliver) got to submit by this weekend in order to receive the award by this year. Went gym for alittle while then go library, went home after that...

Seeing people going down 1 by 1, fearing that it would happen to any of my loved ones, but who have the ability to prevent such a thing to happen or even to predict when they will be leaving us? After the ordeal, i tried to cherish all the people around me, but i am still not successful in it. I got to change my attitude very very very much now! Got to smile always and live my life to the fullest and to all my loved ones and friends out there, i do love you and and do cherish you all. If there is anything tat i have done wrong, plz forgive me and to tell me of my mistakes for me to correct myself. Leaders and especially MES, i am sorry for the things i have done, but have reasons i failed to let u all know.

Back to her. Hmmm... Haha, did not really get the chance to talk to her , we always "disappear" frm one another but hope that things would change for the better and hence blah blah blah... Like the water in the ocean that never run out, my love for you is never-dieing 1. Like a monkey giving a last fight with the serpent, though hopes and chances of success is little yet frail but would not give out with trying till death brings it down. Shall wait for ya till you hail me down. ~Love ya~

Moan-day

2004-07-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

   Back to school as usual. 1st news i recieve upon reaching there is tat Eletrical Riser key yet to be found, hope tat they would get it out by 2molo. Regular attire check, FRC then get back for classes. Mrs Kok is on her top lately, shouted at our class again... Then blah blah blah.. After school, went canteen makan while wait them to come down. Alas they come down, try to find opp. to talk to her. Wanted to do my hw in Prefects Rm but was occupied and didn't want to do work in canteen so i headed 4 the library. Soon after settling down, msg recieved =) Did not manage to do much of my hw, was distracted most of my way through, went home abt 5 plus, so coincidentaly saw her. Was thinking through alot of things while on the way home, got 1 evil laughing monster which tags behind all the way back home.. Haha..

   Reached home, do the usual stuff then heard a thud. "Kor Kor..." To my surprise, my maid was lying on the ground... She is sort of in agony soon before she pass out... Started to panicked but tried to supress it then called 4 help. I felt 4 her pulse, and to my relieve she is only unconcious... My uncle came over and asked me to go down to look out for the paramedics, just like what happen the night when my dad was wrongly ill. They revived her and send her to TTHS... Things start spinning in my head again, soon sms her and she did help alot. Thanks alot!

   Hmmm... Are things getting better or am i just imagining things myself... Hope that by now, her perception of me has changed. Hope that i am not thinking too much, if u are reading this, and i got the wrong idea, plz do inform me :P As usual, love ya lots and MiSs Ya A miLLion...

Sundae

2004-07-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

   Woke up at about 9 plus today went online while waiting 4 breakfast, was suppose to go 4 church but end up never. Stayed online to chat 4 quite sometime before watching Lord Of the Ring-Return Of the King. It was about 4 plus then watched more TV while eating 8 pieces of toasted bread with tuna inside. Went to read through my D & T stuff cos tuesdae got to stay back till very late to try finish as much as we can. Done nothing much 2dae...

   Tomorrow my brother would be going for a operation. Though it is just a minor 1 but i am still worried. After losing my father, my fear for the hospital's atmosphere is there. Still remembered when every1 there were frowning badly, alot of us in tears. The worse thing among all is tat it was my birthdae according to the lunar calender and he "gave" me a Ang Bao tat dae when the doctor asked us to prepare 4 the funeral. Hai~ Praying hard tat things will be alright, i dun want to lose a fine brother. Take Care, bro...

   Love is a form of ingredient tat nourish our lifes. It comes in different forms, in terms of family love, friendship, and love for the only gal. It is just like sugar in a dish, without it, the latter would not be tasty as it suppose to be. I was surprised tat she look at my blog, but wat is the point??? Hai~ Just hope u can add colours into my life, nourish it for me. Let the compass needle be trustworthy once more, fill the holes in my heart and Get Me Alive! I shall wait regardless of results. You took my heart away and i have no intentions of getting it back. Love ya~~~

Sadden-dae

2004-07-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

Nth much to blog 2dae. Ate most of my day through. Watch Lord of the Rings-The Two Towers. Took a nap, then ate dinner and came online and blog in also... As usual, think alot abt her, really dunno wat to do... Sit there, love her and wait...

Fries-dae

2004-07-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

   Morning came school then got to arrange benches for the CH quiz then got to help out with MES stuff too cos Gen wasn't feeling well. I let Kuang Shen, Varian, Geraldine and Cheryl the 4 sec.1s to set-up hall & indeed they did not fail me. They were very fast in learning( hope tat it is cos of their passion =) ) Then i rushed off to Old PSQ 4 their attire check, solemn place... Guy and girls are to stand on seperate sides and checking was very strict 2dae too.

   Played badminton during P.E. it is taken over by Miss Tan, cos Mr Woo is in Macau as a volleyball coach of our National Team. WOW!!! Then had Geo. test. Others are normal lesson.

   After school, entered Prefects Rm, there is meeting and reorganizing going there and things are getting tense after awhile. Went up 4 geo lessons where Mrs Kok finish the whole book liao. =C(   Went back to Prefects Rm where every1 get tense and pissed and they all left 1 by 1. Soon after back the Prefects Rm a.k.a Storerm when Azizi kicked the stupid soccerball and broke a glass panel. Sat there do alittle of E Math then went to gym, ran 1.2 with Felix and Terence and Waimun walked 2.4 =X Hehe, manage to persuade Shaun Wee, the Great Hentai King to buy dinner 4 me where the others went to do Field Cooking and got told off by Captain Lawrence Lim.

   Wat has got into me. I also really dunno.. Like a compass which has lost its directions. Things start to get out of hand. I am not wat i used to be... Have i changed for the worse? Plz tell me...

Thursdae!!!

2004-07-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

     Hmmm... Had 3 tests 2dae, Physics, Chemistry and E. Maths test. Sciences test were quite managable except for my E. Maths but there is at least some improvement... Yeah... Then half-way through Chem, Mr Tan T.Y. get me out to query about the system needed in the library and things like that. After school went to set up projector in library.. Cos saw no1 there, disappointed... Hai~ Nvm, really hope tat time can change them all, or am i just lieing to myself?

     Soon later went to take physics test and rush down to Prefects Rm hoping just to get a glimpse of her and i did! Wanna wait 4 her so i stayed in school but end up... Also went to paint my D & T project soon after Mr Amir called me. Come home, study Geo cos Mrs Kok Said tat she will call us out to stand at the flag pole there is she gets to know we did not put in enough effort through our results... Blog and gonna go do EL work which i owed Mr Chia 4 ages... ~tata~

     Dreamt abt my father last nite. It is more like a encore. All the things went through my head vividly. The time when he is all still healthy to the till he was bounded in bed and till the time he left us all... Hai~ woke up to find tears rolling down my cheek. Wasn't within my reach, but just hope tat he could be where we are suppose to be... You have been the drive to the results i yield now, just wanna thank you alot.

Just Another School Day

2004-07-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog... Another day in school, spend most of my lesson dozing off. Think cos i stayed back in school till very late frequently. Most of the time just wanna see her. Naive of me? I really do not know what now. Then went to play basketball after tat and went to Mr Chia's nite class which was at snail's pace and did not really gain much. Also went to Mr Neo's lessons 4 awhile, go home bath, ate some snacks, sleep... -___-zZz

Wat? Another dae has past?

2004-07-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

     Yesterday went to Living Sanctuary to attend church there, it was fun where i get to know alot of new ppl very quickly. All whom are very socialable, immediately join their cell grp there. Haha, Samuel Ho & Loh ~~> Hollow... After tat actually wanted to head back home but was end up playing basketball till 4:30 before going home. For the rest of my day, i slack through it.

     Today was a typical day in school. Started off with typical attire check and things like that where PCs owed us 130 push-ups in all(they still yet to pay back all :P) Then few classes were asked to stay back for not singing the National athemn and making fun of the school song which punishments... Had 4 free peroids today as Mr Chia & Mdm Low is on MC, went to buy about 5 kachang putik in support of another fund-raising project by the prefectorial board which is qutie successful!

     After school, went to the hall, wanting to help out in the Racial Harmony Day Rehearsal but end up playing badminton. Played with Mervin, Roon Kai and Zhao Huang... Playing solo my way through, accurracy sharpened alittle, smashed and hit the shuttlecock with extreme vigour today i also dunno why... The wireless mic is problematic as usual, sending lots of feedback and the juniors still a little blur on wat to do but did improve lots 2dae, keep it up! Went home at about 6:30pm today. Reach home, online, chat & blog... ~Tata~

     Hmm.... Words of encouragement and things like tat doesn't seem to sink into my head... Dunno why but still hope tat things would change for the better. Leaving all things in God's hand.
     "By the power of love, the impossible could then be changed to the possible. The  time that u went through would return and people will rejoice... Love might just be a word but in fact, it is everything in this world. It heals all wounds and also create human's emotions. It gave life to relationship among all loved ones. Love..."

Lousy Day

2004-07-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

     Having a dull day 2dae. Actually wanted to go out with my clique but then my mother lately is acting a little strange. She mention things tat she find sensitive, to us. Thing like converting of religion, abt "If she die" and my beloved father. Hai~ wish i can figure things out, btw sorry guys.

     I end up eating and sleeping my day through, not forgetting abt my blog. I came online then try to find a new skin and song 4 my blog and here it is. Though it isn't nice enough, then i saw her online. The only person talking, she did not reply at all. Shattered my heart, hopes are diminished. Plz show me the way out!!!

     Still have quite alot of homework incomplete especially my D & T artefact and folio. Bound to mati... This reminds me of Mr Amir... Haha, 1 of the best teacher i ever had in my sch life. He gave me many opportunities to great exposure where he sent me 4 countless workshop and competitions allowing me to get a better insight and able to mature faster too. Lastly, to wat i dread most, 4 the remainder of the sch term, i would be suan like hell again. Even b4 the presentation, they already start the suaning. " Most Courteous Boy" "Defending Champion" Kao, cannot stand it xia. A simple and small mistake allows them to suan me. -_______________-" Hai~ Help Me!!!!!

15hrs in Sch

2004-07-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

Long dae i spent in sch 2dae. 1st up badminton during P.E. lessons, though we did not play 4 long, but it is still fun. Then after sch got to do my regular punishment 4 wat happen last time, end up wiping mirrors in the dance studio b4 going 4 Mrs Kok's C.H. lessons( she finish teaching 2 major chapters within 2hrs!!! WTH!!!) Next up, when to cheong badminton. Haha, skills are rusty liao then leg pain somemore so cannot play properly. Lastly went 4 Mr Neo's nite classes b4 going back home...
Hai~ seems like my hopes and love is dashed... A promise you have made to yourself but a heart broken. Why torment me in this way? Perhaps i am just too low-down 4 ya.. But i shall wait 4 you. Though it might seem foolish of me 4 by then u could get some1 1000 times better than me but i love u with all my heart and it is where it led me to---> A Special Gift-------> You<-------- Hope u can change ur perception of me and give me a chance, tat is only all tat i ask for. LovezZz You a million

11 July 2004

2004-07-11T10:01:00.000+08:00

What a day i had yesterday... Woke up with leg cramp, then went to Ced's house together with shaun to take a ride frm his dad to our Mileage Run. The run was quite "rewarding", though manage to clinch a 19th position but end up with muscle aches and a huge blister on my foot.

During the night, shaun wee, lennon, cedric, his mum and little sister and me went to makan steamboat down at Marina South. What a dinner we had... Shaun and I went lots of trip to get all the foodstuff before we start to cook and eat till all of us become bloated...

Hai~ I am still missing you alot, how am i suppose to tell you? My heart and mind in disarray. Though you are already bounded down but i just hope to let you know that my love 4 you do exist.